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[grindmonkeh]

Betsy and I spent Tuesday evening together carving pumpkins for Halloween decoration. Out of nowhere she said, "Since I only have time to see you maybe one day a week, I just want to tell you that you can see other people as long as you don't tell me about it." I have yet to understand how this could be a good idea. It is strange that I don't mind only seeing her one or two nights a week, and I don't know if that is good or bad. I suppose time will reveal...it hasn't ceased to.

I'm convincing myself to be in a good mood for some reason or another, but I'm lacking motivation. I think I'm going to play counter-strike for a bit...my friends are into Baldur's Gate 2 and I don't have it yet. I'd like to get it but I'm saving money for a home computer which my friend Oki (http://www.livejournal.com/users/oki) is going to help me build as soon as I can afford the components. Hopefully by December I'll be set. Yay!

listening to: Nevermore - The Politics of Ecstasy

Comments

Whatta gal...

[samuraipunch.livejournal.com]

Well there's something you don't get everyday... she probably understands your want/need of social interaction, that she just isn't able to give you... I think that's pretty cool of her... But man that sucks to give "permission" for your other to go out and play the field and then just denying its happening... errr something like that...

Hell it beats the treatment i got... from talking to her and saying that it's nothing important and that nothing is wrong... to BTW "i need my space, and let's just be friends" spiel... Love how it was done so impersonally as well... So much for nice guys... and they complain about never being able to find them...

Re: Whatta gal...

[grindbastard.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your luck...BUT...if that's her type of personality then you definitely deserver betta.

What I said to Betsy:

1. It's not exactly a healthy relationship if we have permission to lie to one another.

2. If I'm ever incontent with our relationship I'll tell you.

3. HYPOTHETICALLY, if I did meet someone else..I would have to either lie to her and say I'm not seeing anyone or tell her that I AM seeing someone, but it's okay because she doesn't mind as long as she doesn't know.

She is really sweet for saying that, but I think it would be both dishonest AND unfeasible to act upon it. I try SO hard not to be a bastard, and she paved the path to total supreme bastardom with gold.

Re: Whatta gal...

[grindbastard.livejournal.com]

I hate it when I make a typo and can't fix it =)

deserver=deserve

*sigh of relief*

Re: Whatta gal...

[samuraipunch.livejournal.com]

not that I thought you'd act upon the invitation. ;)

you pedantic bastard :P~

I can relate

[highlearn.livejournal.com]

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*she* and I had a similar discussion around prom time-- she couldn't make it to mine, and said if I wanted to, I could go with anyone else, and that lead to a rather quick discourse between us relating to how I was abnormal in that, while I didn't see her more than once a week, often less, I still felt I could be close.. being low matinence as it were.. I don't feel an overwhelming need to spend every minute of my life with a gf.. simply because we are in a relationship.. I'm still a person outside of that.

Meh.

Re: I can relate

[grindbastard.livejournal.com]

I was engaged once. I gave her everything. When she left me she took it with her. Everything. I'm happy with my life and I'm pretty inhibited about giving it away to start over again. It's not easy reviving the self-confidence, love, and the goodness in your soul after they have been destroyed. Thus....I am VERY independent and have problems overcoming the distance I put between myself and others.

Blondes...

[samuraipunch.livejournal.com]

Hehehe so you said Grind that their only so much fun for awhile, or something like that... Why don't i ever learn my lesson and avoid being attracted to them?

/me is still a sucka for blondes... :\

Re: Blondes...

[grindbastard.livejournal.com]

Oooooooooh...pretty...*smack*

Thank you...

[samuraipunch.livejournal.com]

May i have another?!?!?!

Plz Grindy???

Re: Thank you...

[grindbastard.livejournal.com]

*boot to the head*

Re: Thank you...

[samuraipunch.livejournal.com]

Little harder... and not to the head... how about the temple...

I so don't understand myself and thoughts about her... I so want to try again, even though now i doubt anything fruitful would come of it...I'm hopeless...

Try kicking me in the temple...