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Jan. 29th, 2002 10:00 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grindmonkehI awoke Sunday morning in a dark room with high ceilings. A strange cat was laying on my chest, staring at me and purring. I oriented myself under the weight of a headache, and remembered a brief moment of fighting with my eyelids before they in victory sealed me from consciousness several hours before. I was already hungover prior to falling asleep. Billy and I had started drinking early Saturday just before noon. As the lunchtime siren calling farmers in from the fields resounded upon that third of the county and into the bar where we lurked, I toasted to myself of nutrition and won more games of eightball than I lost. The cat's name was lucky.
I reflected on a dream I had of swan diving from a high platform into a pool six or seven times. During the last attempt I remembered that I was terrified of diving head first into water from anything higher than three feet or so. I looked at the water just before I leapt, my heart discarded courage, and my ability to move dissipated. I clung to the rail and struggled for breath before waking. I was sleeping three feet away from an aquarium. The consistent trickle of the filtration system and the liquid shadow on the wall had apparently lead my subconcious to water. Too many subliminal skeletons of vertigo were present at the oasis to drink. I used to have a reoccurring dream where I was floating in circles just below the ceiling of an enormous lobby similar to that of a decadent bank or hotel. In the dream I am aware of the fact that I will plummet to the floor thirty feet below unless I'm lucky enough to land on one of the pieces of furniture that are mere specks below. This vertigo conjugates fleeting panic with a moment of sudden awakening and reorientation. I'm not terrified of heights or dropping feet first from forty feet to a body of water, but the axis is reversed in slumber into a nightmare.
My clothes dryer quit yesterday. I'll probably take it apart later this week and see if I can find a resemblance to a problem.
I ran three and half miles of four with Dan on Monday and regained a comfortable five game lead on the basketball pool. I ran all but two laps of the thirty two that comprise the four miles today. Consistent improvement in itself is rewarding.
I'm going to try to take a nap for a few hours before Damon and Kenny arrive and we depart for the Slayer concert in Indy.
I reflected on a dream I had of swan diving from a high platform into a pool six or seven times. During the last attempt I remembered that I was terrified of diving head first into water from anything higher than three feet or so. I looked at the water just before I leapt, my heart discarded courage, and my ability to move dissipated. I clung to the rail and struggled for breath before waking. I was sleeping three feet away from an aquarium. The consistent trickle of the filtration system and the liquid shadow on the wall had apparently lead my subconcious to water. Too many subliminal skeletons of vertigo were present at the oasis to drink. I used to have a reoccurring dream where I was floating in circles just below the ceiling of an enormous lobby similar to that of a decadent bank or hotel. In the dream I am aware of the fact that I will plummet to the floor thirty feet below unless I'm lucky enough to land on one of the pieces of furniture that are mere specks below. This vertigo conjugates fleeting panic with a moment of sudden awakening and reorientation. I'm not terrified of heights or dropping feet first from forty feet to a body of water, but the axis is reversed in slumber into a nightmare.
My clothes dryer quit yesterday. I'll probably take it apart later this week and see if I can find a resemblance to a problem.
I ran three and half miles of four with Dan on Monday and regained a comfortable five game lead on the basketball pool. I ran all but two laps of the thirty two that comprise the four miles today. Consistent improvement in itself is rewarding.
I'm going to try to take a nap for a few hours before Damon and Kenny arrive and we depart for the Slayer concert in Indy.