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[grindmonkeh]

I received this from Mandy tonight. Life is easier when I walk in my sleep, oblivious to social endeavors and lost in isolated skies. Perhaps I underestimated her initial feelings toward me...

Matt,

After not hearing from you I guess you pretty much slipped into the
background of my thought pattern. The summer is really going by pretty fast
and I haven't had much time to think about anything but the daily grind.

I'm not fed up I think a better description is disappointed, I was hoping
you were someone to keep me company a bit, a little suport and entertainment
during a rough period for me, I even thought I might get a little respect
and kindness from you.

I am a little lonely and homesick. To me you seem right next door compared
to most of my friends right now. I even thought you might like to go some
places with me since I do have unlimited babysiting now. I needed a friend,
if there was more fantastic. It seems that that may be where we diverge.
Maybe my motives are too selfish, maybe you're just a dumb male driven by
his penis to the closer chic and forgetting about me because you are getting
some and my feelings never mattered in the first place. I'm sure it wouldn't
occur to you that saying one thing and doing another without any type of
explanation isn't a very nice thing to do.

I am just man bashing. I haven't really passed any serious judgements on
you. I do man bash every now and then though, I feel it is my duty as a
thoroughly stepped on young lady to throw an outrageous fit sometimes so
that you may at least have a tortured soul over your revolting lack of
sensitivity. You have ruined your status as a novelty. Every time I decide
I will try to get to know a guy he does the little flip flop game and
decides to follow a different path.

Oh well, best of luck to ye (I'm reading a book about pathetically poor
Irish people) in straightening out your issues way over in IN.

Maybe by next summer I will find a nice boy who wants to play in the sun
with me.

Mandy